- Sean O’Connell (The Secret Life Of Walter Mitty)
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Austin came to town last night. It’s crazy how after almost a year I still feel the same way. I think he still feels the same way too. I can’t believe it. I am so completely in like with him. I can see myself being with him in the future and for a long time.
Just so you know, we don’t date because he’s 7 hours away in medical school.
But he was so much sweeter than I remember. He took a shower and asked me to pick out his outfit which is so unlike him. It was adorable.
Then we went out to the bar, he bought of course. But he told people he came here to see me and ah that just means something. I was sitting at the bar by myself bc he went to the bathroom, he came up behind me, grabbed me, kissed my neck and said I’ll never leave you.
This is the dumbest thing I’ve ever said but that Miley cyrus song that goes something like when you’re standing next to me I feel like I’m standing with an army. That’s how he makes me feel. I know it’s stupid. But when I’m with him I feel special, confident, and stronger. Don’t laugh at me.
Then one of the greatest things he’s never said to me. I didn’t notice that he had been looking around the bar he turned to me and said “you know, you are the prettiest girl in this whole place. I’ve been looking around and no one compares.” Like OMG how freaking perfect?!
But what I missed most was laying in bed with him. Not having to touch or talk but just knowing he is there. That’s my favorite thing about him; not having to talk. I missed everything about his body and personality.
My favorite thing has been kisses on the back of my neck. I never tell a guy I like them I just see if they ever do it on their own. This morning he did it and I swear I just melted. He used to not be so lovey but this morning and last night he kept kissing me. It didn’t matter who saw. It was perfect and so unlike how he used to be. It makes me think that he actually did miss me and wants me.
This is stupid too but we were talking on the couch last night and I asked him what he does while he drives. I sarcastically said think about me all the time then laughed and he said yeah I kind of do. He also told me he was really sad when I didn’t come down for New Year’s Eve. I didn’t think it mattered that much to him.
He constantly made jokes that I’m talking to other boys and hanging out with a lot of them. He honestly doesn’t know that I am so incredibly picky that no one looks good enough to me when we go out. I only want him.
I may come back to Murray early to see him before our spring breaks end. I can’t go almost another year without seeing him.
Everything is just too perfect with him. Even the small bad things that happened in the past were still great. He never strayed. I wish he didn’t go to school so far away.